I don't know where to start. The last 3 days have been rough, long, and tiring....and I cant actually say that I've done anything productive! They've just been emotionally draining. And I'm so done with it all. And if my Facebook was just this group of people then I would most definitely delete it but its not so that's a lot easier said then done. With getting married, I feel like I get a fresh start. I'm in a new place with new people and as of right now its time for me to move on completely from what used to be. This whole wedding has caused a lot of ugly truths to come out and people have showed sides of themselves that aren't very nice nor true. I have a great husband and great friends but as this week has come to show I think I now know who the real and true ones are.
I know this will probably go against what I will be talking about but lord knows ill never be on the level that all of the drama/crap has gotten to. Its not in my personality. I am not a drama bringing person...I try to stay away from drama but somehow it just seems to chase me.I just want to have friends who I can have a good time with and friends that where ever and no matter anything I do will always be there for me to support and love me. Ive done that and more for all of my friends and I think its the least I expect back. Weddings are supposed to be a fun and excited time for everyone involved. It shouldnt be a time for friendships and relationships to go south but I do realize it happens.
I married a wonderful man. He is always there when I need him and he always says the things I need him to say at the right time. He may not be "christian" to your standards but he has shown more love and compassion and generosity than many christians I know ever have. Because of the way Ive been treated the last month it has shown me a lot of true colors of a lot of people and it just really makes me mad at how they just go judging and shunning other people out because they feel they are living in sin...one thanks for judging instead of coming to me to ask about the truth because not everything is as it seems and two, arent we supposed to love the sinners? we are supposed to treat them as we would treat everyone else. Now if Ive ever done or said anything to you that would or did offend you then by all means delete me from your friends or confront me but if ive just stayed in my own business and lived my own life and never had ever affected your life or your walk for the things that have been done and said...I guess its just time for me to realize that this part in my life and these certain people in my life, its time for me to just move on and get on with my life without you and with my husband...
So i guess what needs to be said now is Thank you :) Im opening a new chapter in my life and I like the outlook. I love you Jonathan Dowling!
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